The Luxury of Familiarity

I am no longer funding 
The luxury of familiarity

It has cost me too much
And offered questionable ROI

I am only entertaining thoughtful investment
In quality platonic companionship

For those interested in applying
Limited applications are being accepted

A nonrefundable fee will be assessed
And a thorough background check performed

I reserve the right to cancel the requisition at any time
And invest in my own peace instead

-gws

Heroes Be Damned

There was no knight or shining armor
There was a woman who survived
Who may have screamed and clawed and begged on her knees
While she fought, and endured, and kept picking herself up
There was no figure with a cape, or sword, or an army coming to her rescue
Only her resolve, her tenacity, her iron will
Sometimes she had to become a monster to fight a monster
Sometimes she had to wait, and strategize, and plan
Her life and soul were her own to save
Her future freedom reliant on her endurance and wit

She had to be her own comfort
Give her own pep talks
Rally her own spirit for the next round
She wiped her own sweat from her brow, and tears from her cheeks
She allowed adversity to forge her in its fire
Allowed pain to build and test her tolerances
Because to survive was the only viable choice
Never was there any consideration given to surrender
She loved herself enough to persist

It wasn't easy, or simple, or linear
There were as many setbacks as there were battles won
As many bruises never seen as scars to be witnessed
More days spent on the edge of abandoning herself than known
She called on every god
Begged them and cursed them and abandoned them all
They had already given her their gifts in the pockets of her soul
It was her job to find and manifest them
It was her job to save herself using all she already had bestowed on her

So she gritted her teeth as cornered animals do
She growled and launched into the fight of her life
She made hard, often heart breaking choices
Made the necessary sacrifices
Regained her feet after every knockdown
Shook off every blinding blow
All the while strategically landing felling blows
Until there was nothing between her and freedom
But a thundering heart and infinite possibilities
Let all other heroes be damned
She could take care of herself

-gws

I Smoked a Joint with the Moon

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I smoked a joint with the moon
She insisted it would allow us to see the world's beauty better
As herbal clouds drifted lazily across her round face
She rambled dreamily about the midnight sea's endless dance with her voluptuous celestial body
Spoke stanzas of star songs
Sang of wild wolf hunts and their howling choruses
Described forest galleries full of freshly woven spider webs bejeweled with moon-dazzled dew
She waxed lyrical about the endless stream of hopes and prayers whispered to her
Giggled as she fondly recounted the numerous myths humans had crafted about her
I listened contentedly
Basking in her hazy light
My heavy-lidded eyes glistening half moons themselves
Safely ensconced in her keeping

-gws

Devouring

Black walls splashed with red light
Black pedestals shoot up from the floor
Every odd stalagmite topped with dark tributes
Each a void
A violent event horizon
Containing a blackness so deep
The minimal luminescence of the room
Feels blinding by comparison

Like calls to like
The black hole I hold
The emptiness that inhabits the center of me
Demands it’s recompense
Otherworldly hunger crawls up my throat
Forcing my chest to expand as I open wide my jaw
I inhale deeply
Tears stream
The void within me begins to consume
Every point of absence in the room

Monuments yield their hollow prizes to me
Each devouring punctuated by a scream
Inhale a void
Exhale a scream
Until there are only walls
Red light
And echoing screams

-gws

Ritual

I have coated my boundaries in sacred salt
Saged the walls of my mind
Served healing teas to my soul
Soaked my dreams in moon water
Calmed my spirits with lavender sachets

I have removed the “welcome” mat from my doorstep
Hung a horseshoe above my threshold
Covered my aura in layers of steel
Cut the cord with silver shears
All to reclaim myself from you

-gws