On Being Done

Being done feels like
A dead place in the heart
Where nothing wants to grow
Where the will to try is blighted
And indifference is all that remains

-gws

Whole Again

I’m learning how to experience joy without
my broken heart fearing that the experience will be taken from me before I can feel it fully

To feel the elation without it immediately triggering tears of mourning

It’s difficult and beautiful learning how to become whole again 

-gws

A Girl was Friends with God

There was a girl who was friends with God
The girl was told God was a man in white robes
But her God was a woman in a soft blue dress
Who let the girl sleep protected in her arms
Just the same as she held her own son

-gws

Reflection

How do you never wonder 
Why the mirror never
Reflects your own face
-gws

Glass on Asphalt

Glass on asphalt 
Making a mosaic 
Of the mundane world 

-gws

Unlearn

I need to unlearn your touch 
The sound of your breathing 
Next to me in the dark
I need to unlearn a lifetime 
Of everything about you

-gws

Redemption

Sometimes
The simple act of cleaning a toilet
Can feel like redemption 

-gws

Do Not Confuse Grief With Guilt

A friend said to me,

“Remember you didn’t cause it.
You couldn’t have prevented it.
You have nothing to feel guilty for.
It is okay to grieve.
There is much to grieve,
But do not confuse grief with guilt.”

I did not know how much I needed
These words until they were spoken.

-gws

Step Back

Everyone who has ever loved you
Have put their hands up and
Taken a step back
Now they are looking at me
Wondering if now is when
I will finally do the same

-gws

Rage Fire

The truth has lit a rage fire in my belly
Where there was guilt and pity
There is now a simple aching coal
Burning so hot it challenges the sun

-gws