Going to War

Everyday I watch you head to war
War with the demons in your mind
War with your family
War with strangers
War with me
Your war created my PTSD
Always triggered
You constantly strategize and scrimmage
Uncaring about collateral damage
Gleefully seeking maximum carnage
You roll in the mud of your resentments
Wearing them like war paint
Screaming with berserker rage 
Craving vengeful satisfaction
Through blood lust and pain
Unaware your counting coo trophies
Leave you the monster of the story
The victim turned villain
Doomed in bitterness until the end

-gws

Rude

I hate that I can be so self-focused
So rude
I forget to say hello
I forget to ask about 
Your children
Your health
Your work
Your spouse
Your fur babies
You

I often lose track of the polite things to say or do
When I am task-driven
I forget we are both human
I forget that our relationship 
Is more important than my question
I do not commit these omissions purposefully
I get distracted by the illusion of urgency

So I beg your forgiveness
I plead for your patience
I promise to try harder
To prioritize connection
And make space for us 
To see each other

-gws

Demon

He told me resentful tales of taking up arms to slay my demons

I had no demons before him
He was my demon

-gws

One Night

One night
The stars whispered your name
They outlined your image in their sky
And I fell

-gws

He Loved Her Quietly

He loved her quietly
Though his eyes shouted it to the stars

-gws

Affirmation Journal Entry #1

I am worthy.
I am deserving of feeling good in my body.
I am deserving of comfort.
I am fiercely smart.
I am talented as f😘ck!
-gws

Good Morning

A little storm cloud wanted to be painted in the colors of dawn and so it stood in the sunlight, basking in joy.
-gws

(photo by me taken while waiting to grab my to-go coffee this morning.)

Mood

I am in a mood
A place
A space
Where I have no desire
To live with grace
Where rage itches
Beneath my skin
And I do not wish
To let anyone in
I want to bare my teeth
To growl
To snarl
I'm desperately trying
To hold it back
I know no easy remedy
No salve to soothe
The volatility in my soul
Trying to break me
To break loose onto the world

-gws

Love you! Miss you!

Love you!  Miss you!
Let’s figure out how and when we can exist in the same space together for a while because my soul needs some YOU energy like my skin needs sunshine!

-gws

Solstice Blessing 2022

May your hearth glow bright and warm as the sun deities slumber.  
May your threshold be welcoming and your table full.  
May you dream deeply of abundance, joy, love, and laughter.  
May the stillness of nature restore your ability to hear your heart song.  
Rest well and know that, soon, the sun returns!  
Blessed Solstice! 
- gws