Pulled out of time By the ratcheting click of steel Around thin and tender wrists Humanity removed Replaced by fear and shame -gws
Arrested
Category: Emotions
Rabbit Holes of Rumination
You treat me like a beautiful mind Asking my opinions Exploring ideas You invite me to engage in discordant conversation And uncomfortable curiosity You bid me to think deeply To test the boundaries of my beliefs You ask me to pull you down rabbit holes of rumination Neither of us sure where we will be lead Yet both of us excited for the journey We discuss, debate, and discover We challenge, and question, and deadlock Always honest and vulnerable Open, curious, and safe Exchanging thoughts and perspectives With the utmost love and respect And I thank you for every luminous minute -gws
Nourished
When my roots are nourished The fire at my core ignites The light returns to my eyes As my soul flares bright with renewal Colors become more vivid Flavors more complex My pupils dilate The world is exciting again Enticing again When my roots are nourished My mind becomes expansive Filled with possibilities, curiosities, and wonderment My blood sings universal mysteries into my ears As I become wholly seated in my body So that I may experience life Amongst the tapestry of human sensations When my roots are nourished I crave deeper connections My need for physical touch grows Primal energy infuses my thoughts and dreams As I desire to experience the universe on a spiritual level Burning across the sky in an explosion of sacred energy Enlightened and sated and complete -gws
No One
No one knows No one knows the unfathomable rage I am home to No one sees the hot coals behind my eyes No one hears the internal screaming resounding in my chest No one feels the radiant heat of my simmering anger No one knows the infinite plans of vengeance I push down No one knows the resilient heat of the embers of resentment hidden just below the surface No one witnesses the growing of my impotent fury I am a soul under pressure I am determined to produce diamonds and not explosions Some days the beast pleads to be freed so its tongue can lash and its claws can rip I am stronger than my base self And I will restrain the monster until I can heal the wounds that feed and fuel it I am resolved to not become or be consumed by the monster My desire to be whole is greater than my desire to fracture and destroy No one knows I am fighting to heal No one knows that I am determined to heal I know I will heal I will heal I will be whole -gws
Metaphysical Intercourse
The most sensitive area of my body is my mind Exchange thoughts with me Stimulate me from the inside out Engage me in metaphysical intercourse Lead me down your roads of contemplation Let me chase you through the field of your philosophies Make my pulse quicken by describing your deepest passions Touch me with your dreams Your secrets The intricacies of your core beliefs Take me on a private tour of your sacred spaces Turn me on with your vulnerability Make me crave your speculations Let me ache for the details of your considerations Expand my mind to bursting with our conversations Until I stop your mouth with the heat of mine -gws
Reasons Rationalizations Justifications
How do I stay away from you When your shadow fits so well with mine How do I wipe you from my thoughts When I can't seem to wipe the memory of your lips from my skin How do I give you up when all I want to do when you speak Is stop your words with my mouth When all I want is to feel your hands on my hips How do I walk away when I see the way Your eyes drink me in when you think I'm not looking I crave you with every pulse in my veins And the way you bite your lower lip says you crave me too But we have so many reasons Reasons Rationalizations Justifications And the truth is I don't care I am not strong enough I don't want to deny this draw It's like gravity Keeping us in orbit of each other I don't want to deny this chemistry That no alchemy can seem to alter So fuck it Let's burn together until dawn -gws
Grief
Grief smothers
It slows minutes to seconds
Linear experience is arrested
And time becomes one, disconnected moment
Followed by another disconnected moment
Like a damaged film reel
Jumping from one stepping stone to the next
Each leap a gaping chasm
Light too bright
Sound too loud
Words have no meaning
Colors leeched of their vibrance
The body feels both weighted down and untethered
Feelings resonate acutely beneath numbness
Does life still make sense when it feels senseless?
Is it possible to live when one cannot seem to draw breath?
Grief feels like drowning
Tumultuous and savage
Full of ache, helplessness, desperation
Roiling and hollow
Swinging like a pendulum from feeling too much
To nothing at all
-gws
Joy of Destruction
Born deep inside of me A glowing ember begging to ignite To storm, snap, and snarl A crimson shadow sharpening its claws Scarlet eyes stalking opportunity A monster lurking just below restraint Whispering dark pleas for release Begging for me to drop its chains So its primal fires can erupt And burn down the world Howling triumphantly at the joy of destruction -gws
Hungry
Hunger chasm deep
Engulfing and undenyable
Awareness of heat and heartbeat
Pulses pounding a compelling rhythm
Skin seeking skin
Lips seeking lips
All sensation and want
Shallow breaths
Whispered gasps
The spark ignites into a blaze
Two souls surrender
To flames of pleasure and need
-gws
Rain Mellowed the Rock
The rock stood stalwart over the sea Strong Silent Resolute Ever watching Ever present The sea praised the rock Recognizing its reliability Extolling its resilience Of the rock's ability to weather the elements Alongside the sea But the rock wasn't resilient The rock suffered The rain mellowed the rock Smoothing down its defined edges At first the rock did not mind Because aren't smoothed edges A testament to its steadfast partnership with the sea Showing proof of its loyalty But water was also an insidious lover The mist with the help of the wind found every crack And forced its way deep within the stone Expanding fissures and causing fractures The rock without realizing lost itself to time The relentlessness of water Slowly broke down the rock Until it one day crumbled into the sea It was not mourned or missed Its absence sparked no shadow of memory For the sea still lapped and lashed and sprayed and claimed All who sat upon its shore One drop of salted water at a time -gws
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