How do I stay away from you
When your shadow fits so well with mine
How do I wipe you from my thoughts
When I can't seem to wipe the memory of your lips from my skin
How do I give you up when all I want to do when you speak
Is stop your words with my mouth
When all I want is to feel your hands on my hips
How do I walk away when I see the way
Your eyes drink me in when you think I'm not looking
I crave you with every pulse in my veins
And the way you bite your lower lip says you crave me too
But we have so many reasons
Reasons
Rationalizations
Justifications
And the truth is
I don't care
I am not strong enough
I don't want to deny this draw
It's like gravity
Keeping us in orbit of each other
I don't want to deny this chemistry
That no alchemy can seem to alter
So fuck it
Let's burn together until dawn
-gws
Grief smothers It slows minutes to seconds Linear experience is arrested And time becomes one, disconnected moment Followed by another disconnected moment Like a damaged film reel Jumping from one stepping stone to the next Each leap a gaping chasm Light too bright Sound too loud Words have no meaning Colors leeched of their vibrance The body feels both weighted down and untethered Feelings resonate acutely beneath numbness Does life still make sense when it feels senseless? Is it possible to live when one cannot seem to draw breath? Grief feels like drowning Tumultuous and savage Full of ache, helplessness, desperation Roiling and hollow Swinging like a pendulum from feeling too much To nothing at all
Born deep inside of me
A glowing ember begging to ignite
To storm, snap, and snarl
A crimson shadow sharpening its claws
Scarlet eyes stalking opportunity
A monster lurking just below restraint
Whispering dark pleas for release
Begging for me to drop its chains
So its primal fires can erupt
And burn down the world
Howling triumphantly at the joy of destruction
-gws
Hunger chasm deep Engulfing and undenyable Awareness of heat and heartbeat Pulses pounding a compelling rhythm Skin seeking skin Lips seeking lips All sensation and want Shallow breaths Whispered gasps The spark ignites into a blaze Two souls surrender To flames of pleasure and need
The rock stood stalwart over the sea
Strong
Silent
Resolute
Ever watching
Ever present
The sea praised the rock
Recognizing its reliability
Extolling its resilience
Of the rock's ability to weather the elements
Alongside the sea
But the rock wasn't resilient
The rock suffered
The rain mellowed the rock
Smoothing down its defined edges
At first the rock did not mind
Because aren't smoothed edges
A testament to its steadfast partnership with the sea
Showing proof of its loyalty
But water was also an insidious lover
The mist with the help of the wind found every crack
And forced its way deep within the stone
Expanding fissures and causing fractures
The rock without realizing lost itself to time
The relentlessness of water
Slowly broke down the rock
Until it one day crumbled into the sea
It was not mourned or missed
Its absence sparked no shadow of memory
For the sea still lapped and lashed and sprayed and claimed
All who sat upon its shore
One drop of salted water at a time
-gws
A little storm cloud wanted to be painted in the colors of dawn and so it stood in the sunlight, basking in joy.
-gws
(photo by me taken while waiting to grab my to-go coffee this morning.)
I am in a mood
A place
A space
Where I have no desire
To live with grace
Where rage itches
Beneath my skin
And I do not wish
To let anyone in
I want to bare my teeth
To growl
To snarl
I'm desperately trying
To hold it back
I know no easy remedy
No salve to soothe
The volatility in my soul
Trying to break me
To break loose onto the world
-gws
