What do you do?

Photo by Pratik Gupta on Pexels.com
What do you do when you're bone-weary
When your soul is exhausted and all you want to do is cry
What do you do when you reflect on where you are 
And you just can't quite understand how the hell you got there
What do you do when no choice seems like a good one
When all your efforts feel like they still end in defeat
What do you do when you feel like it's time to give up
But you're sure your gut is still saying, "just a little longer"
What do you do when you don't think you have more to give
When you don't think you have it in you to keep finding a path through
What do you do when all you know is fight
But all you want is peace
What do you do when you don't know what to do

-gws

Trauma Everywhere

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com
Too many school shootings
Too many mass shootings
Targeted racial violence
Police brutality
Poisoned water supplies
Threatened reproductive autonomy
Diminishing voting rights
Suicides
Pandemic illness, isolation, and death
Natural disasters
Climate change
Ever broadening wealth gap
Online bullying
Ridiculous social standards spread on social media
Mental health crisis
Increasing racism
Food insecurity
Increasing addictions
Decreasing compassion...
Apathy looming over it all

-gws

Who I Want to Be

Photo by u946b u738b on Pexels.com
I want a closet full of ball gowns that I wear to the grocery store
I want a shelf full of outlandish hats that I wear to walk the dog
I want a drawer full of adorable fandom socks that I wear with bedazzled sneakers
I want a collection of cloaks, coats, and sweaters handmade from mismatched scraps of fabric and yarn that create random, joyous patterns
I want to dance on curbs and twirl in open spaces
I want to speak random bits of spontaneous verse in the park
I want to compliment the charismatic child and the quietest person at the party so they know they are seen
I want to be the joyous crone who says sage things and knows that life shouldn’t be taken so seriously 
I want to be unequivocally, undeniably me

-gws

The Castaway

Photo by Ianmer Basio on Pexels.com
He washed up on my shores
Broken and ravaged
I offered water and bread
I offered a place at my fire
He attended with gratitude
And we became friends
But the dark water festered
Shadowing his eyes
Corrupting his heart
And no love or attendance from me could cure him
He had to cure himself
I tended the fire and fed his body
And held vigil while he fought for his soul

-gws

Rancor

Photo by cottonbro on Pexels.com
The hollow place where rot lives
Where necrotic tissue festers
Feverish and pestilent
Slowly poisoning the soul
Infecting every thought
Corrupting hope
Deforming relationships into twisted nightmares
That only you can see through its distorted lens
Leaving you rabid and snarling
Snapping at everyone who gets too close
Rageful and destructive
Prompting you to strike out in all directions
But you're only immolating yourself

-gws

Work in Progress

Photo by Steve Johnson on Pexels.com
I am a work in progress
I may be broken, and I can be mended
I may be grieving, and I can feel joy
I may be frightened, and I can be brave
I am a radiant light carried by a vessel made of water and earth
Though I make mistakes, I learn
Though I resent, I release
Though I judge, I reflect
I am moldable, flexible, evolutionary
In my capability to navigate change
The me of yesterday informs the me of today
And the me of today lays the ground for the me of tomorrow
Grateful each day is a blank page
Awaiting the narrative of my own creation
Limited only by my own imagination

-gws