Today I chose to stay present
I chose to stay in sync with my breath
I chose to stay with the rhythm of my resting heartbeat
Today I chose to just listen
I chose to release my assumptions
I chose to keep my defenses sheathed
Today I chose to show up curious
I chose to leave my assumptions aside
I chose to suppress my desire to make judgements
Today I shed the skin of old behaviors
I chose to make conscious choices in the face of old fears
I chose to prove to myself that I can evolve
-gws
You are everything and your words are but an opportunity to climb a tower of knowing to get to you.
Those who do not rise to the challenge to make handholds of your lyrics and footholds of your prose are the ones whose lives lack the enrichment of your visions and the music of your descriptions
They are the ones who hold nothing in their hands while you hold the world
-gws
How do I stay away from you
When your shadow fits so well with mine
How do I wipe you from my thoughts
When I can't seem to wipe the memory of your lips from my skin
How do I give you up when all I want to do when you speak
Is stop your words with my mouth
When all I want is to feel your hands on my hips
How do I walk away when I see the way
Your eyes drink me in when you think I'm not looking
I crave you with every pulse in my veins
And the way you bite your lower lip says you crave me too
But we have so many reasons
Reasons
Rationalizations
Justifications
And the truth is
I don't care
I am not strong enough
I don't want to deny this draw
It's like gravity
Keeping us in orbit of each other
I don't want to deny this chemistry
That no alchemy can seem to alter
So fuck it
Let's burn together until dawn
-gws
Grief smothers It slows minutes to seconds Linear experience is arrested And time becomes one, disconnected moment Followed by another disconnected moment Like a damaged film reel Jumping from one stepping stone to the next Each leap a gaping chasm Light too bright Sound too loud Words have no meaning Colors leeched of their vibrance The body feels both weighted down and untethered Feelings resonate acutely beneath numbness Does life still make sense when it feels senseless? Is it possible to live when one cannot seem to draw breath? Grief feels like drowning Tumultuous and savage Full of ache, helplessness, desperation Roiling and hollow Swinging like a pendulum from feeling too much To nothing at all
What a glorious idea
What an inspired place
How great it is to have a place that is full of art so bad that it becomes collectively good
I imagine this is where all prestigious macaroni art dwells
Where macrame goes to retire
I imagine walls covered in construction paper turkeys and Christmas trees made from hand shapes
Cases of scout lanyards
Shelves covered in lopsided ceramics
And so many Bob Ross paint-along landscapes
I imagine pedestals exalting junkyard sculptures inspired by Degas
Portrait galleries more closely resembling the work of Dali and Picasso than might have been intended
What a wonderful concept to celebrate the underwhelming
The failed attempt
The work that only a parent could love (from the back of the closet)
Let the awkward and unwieldy
The uncomfortable and misunderstood
Be transformed into other people's treasure
-gws
Words take up room in my mouth
Coarse and bitter
Smooth and sweet
Complex and spicy
Allowing me to experience the complex flavors of
Emotion and experience
Desire and dreams
Hunger and horror
Sometimes voracious
Eager to be made manifest
Sometimes savored
Taking time to tumble onto the page
When the words combine just right
They produce seven course meals
Ready for the soul to consume
Every color, flavor, texture
Providing nourishment for the spirit
That only poetry can provide
- gws
Happy NaPoWriMo eve!
The rock stood stalwart over the sea
Strong
Silent
Resolute
Ever watching
Ever present
The sea praised the rock
Recognizing its reliability
Extolling its resilience
Of the rock's ability to weather the elements
Alongside the sea
But the rock wasn't resilient
The rock suffered
The rain mellowed the rock
Smoothing down its defined edges
At first the rock did not mind
Because aren't smoothed edges
A testament to its steadfast partnership with the sea
Showing proof of its loyalty
But water was also an insidious lover
The mist with the help of the wind found every crack
And forced its way deep within the stone
Expanding fissures and causing fractures
The rock without realizing lost itself to time
The relentlessness of water
Slowly broke down the rock
Until it one day crumbled into the sea
It was not mourned or missed
Its absence sparked no shadow of memory
For the sea still lapped and lashed and sprayed and claimed
All who sat upon its shore
One drop of salted water at a time
-gws
"It's Spring!" the little songbird sang,
excitement trilling in her voice.
"It is winter," groaned the sleepy sapling
whose roots were enshrouded in icy soil.
"But the sun is SO warm," whistled the songbird.
"Yes, but the ground is still SO cold," creaked the sapling
"Puff up, my small friend, and sleep with me a little longer.
When my buds start to sprout, we will both sing a song of
welcome for Spring."
So the songbird tucked up into a nook in the saplings branches
and together they hunkered down to wait for Spring to truly arrive.
-gws