Conversations with You

I’m still in love with the dream of you
The you full of potential and promises
Who made me feel…
But loving a dream costs too much
So much unspoken subtext in each conversation
Truths too costly to acknowledge
Feelings beneath the surface
Drowning in sorrow 
The boundary between us
A pane of glass
Impassable and impenetrable
For all but what lies
Unsaid in our eyes
I see it on your face too
Things that you want to say
Feelings unresolved 
Both of us arcing
Not allowed to connect
Knowing you would welcome being consumed 
I would not survive what sparks
Dreams offer no foundation
And I need stability now
I pray to wake from this wanting
Of a you that never was 
Or will ever be

-gws