Where I end is not where you begin It's where the space between us lives The space where we both can stretch and breathe as individuals It's the space where my dreams manifest The space where my thoughts untangle The space where my mind gives birth to the words manifested as my heart beats This is a sacred space for me My moat My wall My well worn path in front of my garden gate
Where I end is not where you begin It is the absence which makes the heart grow fonder The place where longing pushes up blooms of desire It is the ocean between our continents with endless depths to explore and mysteries to discover It is the chapter break between each new story we write It is the fence that protects us from each others' demons It is the tower spire where we can see each others' kingdoms It is the bridge over the pond whose shores we share
Where I end is not where you begin It is the picnic blanket we sit on beneath oak branches on an early autumn day The breeze dancing between words read aloud under an azure sky to a soundtrack of busy bees It is the place where we stand eye to eye It is the place my voice crosses to reach your ears and yours crosses to reach mine It is the space where the music plays that we dance to It is a precious space that hosts the alchemy which manifests where our boundaries touch It is the breath The heartbeat The sigh The birthplace of connection
The space where I end is not where you being It is the holy place held by two individuals to nourish one partnership If it is smothered, it's bounty cannot grow And the relationship will whither and die from lack of air and light Hold the space Honor the space Tend your boarders and I will tend mine And we might just produce something prismatic and beautiful In the space between you and me
"In the end, you cannot save what does not want to be saved."
"When the pain is greater than the fear, you will know what to do."
Every time your resentments flow like tidal waves I drown in a truth that is brighter than the sun You didn’t want this life You didn’t want me
You thought by choosing me you were… ...making right on the injuries you inflicted ...picking the girl who would be steady and sure ...thumbing your nose at your conservative parents ...proving something to your sisters ...doing what was expected of you by your family and society ...doing what you expected of yourself
You might have loved me once But you don’t know how to love yourself And unless you can love yourself You cannot love anyone else And we all suffer You Me The kids In trying to manifest some imagined expectation you believe the world burdened you with You have doomed us to a hollow, lonely existence
In the darkest moments, I sometimes wish you had never come back After you walked away all those years ago I sometimes think the man I fell in love with never returned You went out for bread and just never came back Only your demons returned wearing your face
Time has not been kind to us Nor has it bred kindness in us Though I think I really tried But the steel in your eye and the edge in your voice As you lay down my assigned crimes in a quiet growl Eviscerates me over and over for The crimes of a world that doesn't adhere to your desires
It hurts to love you And I don’t know if I have it in me to continue to try I am drinking sand in the desert for lack of water And I am withering inside So just admit that I am not what you wanted I am what you thought you should have A requirement on the test of Life That allowed you to check the box of successful adulthood
"Hurt people, hurt people," I've heard it said You are a drowning man who is blindly flailing Endangering or scaring off those who might help I accept your life's injury and pain But I do not accept responsibility for it And I cannot continue to endure your wrath to heal you
"In the end, you cannot save what does not want to be saved."
"When the pain is greater than the fear, you will know what to do."
Please excuse the mess
This house is under construction
Held together by scotch tape and string
The foundation is rotten and weak
And there are bats in the attack
Making a terrible mess of things
At least the curtains are nice
-gws
